“Are you kidding me God? Seriously?” The words spilled out of my mouth with utter frustration and defeat.
It wasn’t a pity party. I was ticked. Super annoyed and disappointed in God.
Swirling around in my head was one complaint after another. “God does NOT want me to be happy. He just doesn’t. Why can’t everything be right at the same time? Just once, God. Just once!”
It’s not often I lose my composure with God, or even have the nerve to question Him, but I was completely exasperated and a flood of emotions took over.
And honestly, in that moment, I just didn’t care. I wasn’t even worried what God thought. Or how horribly I was behaving. Or how ungrateful I sounded. Nothing mattered but my indignation.
The day before, I experienced the ultimate euphoria. A situation I’d been praying about for years showed legitimate signs of breakthrough. This was something that had weighed heavily on my heart and I knew the positive direction was nothing short of miraculous. I was encouraged, joyful, hopeful, and full of peace.
Can you relate? Have you ever experienced a time when everything seemed right in your world, even if just for a brief, momentary second? You felt it. The stars lined up, your heart was full, and you knew this was one for the record books.
THAT was my moment. And it was glorious. And boy did I sleep well that night.
But it didn’t last.
The very next day, it all changed and my joy was compromised.
Crash! Just like that. I was instantly filled with hopelessness, despair, and anger.
It was an unrelated situation that turned sour. While it had been on my ‘radar’, it wasn’t categorized as an immediate threat. Gee, it almost sounds like I’m in battle and strategizing whether or not I’m going to have to neutralize the enemy, doesn’t it?
But I digress….
So here I was, from a mountaintop high (and remember, I had been waiting an EXTREMELY LONG TIME for this answer to prayer) to a destructive and painful low.
“God does NOT want me to be happy. He just doesn’t. Why can’t everything be right at the same time? Just once, God. Just once!”
Can you understand my lament?
God had it in for me and I was finally on to Him. The gig was up. He was NOT always looking out for my best interests as I’d been led to believe. I mean c’mon God. I’m a good girl. I work really hard. I try to do the right things. Why oh why can’t you just give me a stinkin’ break for once?
Looking back, I’m a little shocked at my behavior. This was NOT my normal ‘M.O.’! It was a bold, ‘in your face’ God moment that surprised even me. It’s easy to blame God when things go wrong, but is it right?
I’m guessing God wasn’t surprised. And gratefully, it was only just a moment. Well, maybe two…
I bet God is used to people losing their cool with Him, and fortunately, His shoulders are big enough for the job. If it were me, I’d be in perpetual irritation mode if people were constantly blowing me up. I would NOT be having it! Thankfully, I’m not God.
But God expects it. And through the storm, He provides the most caring and comforting reassurance. And He never leaves our side.
After my little temper tantrum, I bounced back fairly quickly. Why? Because I know the truth.
As a Believer in Christ, scripture jumps off the pages and into my soul. The Bible isn’t just a bunch of words strung together. It’s actually the Word of God speaking truth into my life. And I take it to heart. I believe Him.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” Matthew 11:28-29
“Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.” Isaiah 40:31
“but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.” Proverbs 1:33
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14:27
Nowhere in the Bible does it say that ‘everything is going to be good at the same time.’ Trust me, I looked!
But I am promised love, comfort, understanding, provision, blessings, and most importantly, the gift of eternal life.
And I want a break? Seriously?
After I gathered my wits and calmed down, I was reminded that I’ve already been given the best ‘break’ of all.
So today, no ‘Top 10 Tips For Turning Your Frown Upside Down’. Just one very important, life-changing, promise from God.
“If you declare with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” Romans 10:9
Friends, if know Jesus as your Lord and Savior, have the reassurance that He will love you through your moments of doubt. You’re not going to scare Him away. But if you don’t know Jesus Christ, I urge you to develop a personal relationship with Him. Jesus is the only One who will love you unconditionally, never leave your side, and deliver you from the depths of despair. It is only He who has the power and authority to promise everlasting life to all who believe.
Encouraged? Confused? Curious? Excited? Hopeful? Pessimistic? Whatever the case, reach out if you’d like to discuss putting your faith in Jesus Christ. I’d love to talk to you! firstname.lastname@example.org
Blessings to you!